Nightmare fuel

Recently, due to certain developments in my life, I have been subject to a few ,worse than normal ,dreams. Probably not as bad as some peoples, and maybe they wouldn’t even be categorised as nightmares, I have no idea what the criteria are for inclusion, but they’re pretty horrific and often I wake with a start and my heart is pounding. Not so unusual, I hear you say, well this is where my unique weirdness takes over. I used to suffer from nightmares when I was younger and, like bullying, I refused to succumb and quickly developed a coping strategy. Once the initial terror had subsided, I would write down what I remembered and how it made me feel; sometimes quite graphic details. As I grew and the nightmares became less frequent, I stashed my notes in a folder and forgot about them. I discovered them quite by accident one day when I was clearing out a cupboard and read through them. The recall was surprisingly vivid and they easily developed into my first few short stories. Now they have returned, albeit temporarily (I hope) due to the chaos bomb that went off in my life during the last twelve months! But, as before, I use the tools at my disposal in an attempt to not allow them to control or effect my waking life. I take notes and work on them, sometimes using the actual scenarios that have arisen, but more frequently focusing on the emotion, the sheer terror and pouring them into character. In this way I kill two birds with one stone; I effectively banish the nightmare to the fiction cave, making it a story in my mind and stripping away the remnants of residual reality that flutter like rags in the wind through my waking life and the convenient byproduct is a cornucopia of fully formed ideas and notes that will become my future horror/dark fantasy fiction projects. Hopefully these will transfer the emotion of the heartfelt horror to my readers when they are published, while exorcising them from myself. Ironically this coping mechanism means that my win win situation will only be short lived as it is intentionally putting my mind in a better place and soothing my subconscious, thus making the nightmares less frequent, necessitating the sourcing of inspiration elsewhere once this period is over. But, as my father used to say, make hay while the sun shines (or make horror while the darkness looms, in my case!).
I know this post is a bit random and a bit of a rant, but I hope you may have found it an interesting insight in to the sourcing of inspiration and my personal methods of turning darkness into light and back into darkness. See you all again soon.

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Back on track

Well after a bit of a break from my writing, I am finally back on track and moving forward. I tried a couple of weeks ago with little success, sitting starting blankly with a pen in my hand, but then my muse returned and it all began to flow again and I have completed another short in no time. That leaves just one to go before I publish the collection and chuffed just doesn’t cover it!
Further to this I have started a new job (only part time but it helps support my writing and online business) and I’ve just signed up to begin a degree in english literature in autumn this year! I think maybe I should petition the powers that be to add an eighth day to the week so I can fit it all in.
For those of you interested in TALES OF THE MYSTERIOUS AND MACABRE it “should” be available by the end of Feb and there’s a taster of the tales included on Amazon. Three horror/dark fantasy shorts: THE KILLING ANGEL
ALONE IN TORMENT I hope you enjoy them, I would hugely appreciate any reviews and how you come back when TALES OF THE MYSTERIOUS AND MACABRE is released. See you again soon.

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Back to reality and a new year promise

Well, happy 2013 to you all! Hope you had a wonderful Christmas and new years. The latter part of 2012 was a trying time for my family after the loss of my mother, and Christmas was kept as “normal” as possible for my children; we managed to have fun and laughed a lot,but now the funeral is over and we are grabbing the new year by the horns and getting our life back on track. My writing took a back seat during all the arrangements but this is now also back in the fore. I have almost completed TALES OF THE MYSTERIOUS AND MACABRE (which was scheduled for release at Christmas) and the new release date should be about February time. Thank you all for your patience and understanding and for the lovely messages I have received, it means a lot to me and to my family. This post is only brief but from now on they will be more regular again and have much more content. Thank you all and see you soon.

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